1.One taught me dignity
2.One taught me love
3.One taught me fun
4.One taught me repulsion
5.One taught me loss
6.One taught me he’s too tight to buy me a McDonald’s (game over)
7.One taught me a love that’s here to stay
We all have a past and sometimes it comes back to haunt us and we don’t even know why. I think as we get older we are trying to make sense of it all. You get to the point where you just don’t want drama and when you think of all the times you got caught up in stuff..if only you could of had a word with your younger self and been like ‘what you doing?!?’…we live and learn I guess and it would be a-bit boring if nothing ever happened that wasn’t in the ‘ grand scheme’ of things now would it?
So I’m turning…30 again this year because I’m in a pack that I’m not getting older and I’m not celebrating my birthday until I turn 40 which will be never because I’m 30….
Anyway it just makes you think about how fleeting life is and how you really sometimes didn’t appreciate the ‘good old days’ as much as you should have.
Chatting to my sister down in Exeter about times when we used to go out and oh how we laughed but at the time we were more or less in a permanently drunk state crying over who had dumped us this time…which is basically what most of our friends were doing and partying it up. Little did we know these days were the building blocks to who we are now and they were without a doubt hilariously funny…but at 30…would I do it all again?! I actually like where I am now. I like going for a coffee and watching crime dramas…yeah it’s not as cool but it’s a lot more fulfilling.
It’s safe to say I suffered a lot of heart break and not just from been dumped by boys …(I wasn’t always dumped) but also by friendships that just somehow grow apart. A lot of the time there isn’t a reason for it and life takes us all on our own journeys. I am so thankful for everything past and present in my life…all the mistakes only made me stronger. I’m thankful for all my relationships and what people good and bad have taught me.
All I know and have learnt it that time is a great healer but is also so precious so don’t waste your time on regrets, revenge, guilt, what ifs…because you will miss it all. Have faith in that you are exactly where you need to be at any given time, be grateful for what you have and be happy because this too won’t last…
Thank you…next 🙌🏻💕